| Well, I haven't been here in awhile...Guess I should start paying attention to my sad little journal again. So...what have I been doing over the last 16 weeks? Well, not much, actually.
Victoria and I are still as happy as ever, and our 8 month anniversary is right around the corner. I love her so very much, and can't imagine life without her. It's strange how it happens, really. Everything seemed at least enough to leave me partially content, and now my life feels fuller, and I'm pretty happy. She amazes me a little more each day, and I am overwhelmed by the fact that I have found someone so genuine and pure to spend the rest of my days with.
Anyhow, I've done nothing but work lately. I've been delegated some new duties which basically has me filling two positions. So far it's running me ragged, and I've been more stressed out than I should be over a job in a freaking call center. Ah well, I'll get used to it, I suppose. I still can't believe I've been at this stupid place for so long. Almost two years ago I was trying desperately to get fired, and now I'm afraid they're gonna force me into a supervisor position. Bleh.
Victoria and I decided to launch a rescue mission. After all of the rain a few weeks ago, we were left with a virtual pond in our storm drain. This pond stayed for few days after the rainfall, and left us with a whole swarm of tadpoles. We would go watch the tadpoles just about everyday, but each day the water got a little bit lower. Suddenly the tadpoles were nearly dried out, and Victoria couldn't stand the thought of them all dying. Honestly, I didn't like the idea either. So I went and got a ten gallon fish tank and all the fixins, and we scooped up about 30 of the little guys.
We've got froglets, little half-tadpole-half-frogs, jumping around and climbing around the aquarium. We're down to about 20, but only four have been accounted for. The nasty little cannibals!
Anyhow, that's about it. My dull life, but full and rich with such beauty. I love my life with Victoria, and haven't been happier. Maybe I'll actually start updating more often. Here's hoping! | comments: I think I can hear you talk or You're only dreaming...   |
| | Current Music: | Less Than Jake - "The Ghost of You and Me" | | Security: | | | Subject: | Long time, no type... | | Time: | 09:12 pm | | Current Mood: |  tired |
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| First and foremost, my apologies to anyone who actually used to read my journal for finding myself MIA. I didn't mean for it to happen, but, well...
So, work has been keeping me somewhat busy. I've recently been promoted to Team Lead [a slightly better position than the one I'm in, considering it means less phone time...woo hoo!], so that'll be coming up in a few days. I start on Wednesday, so here's hoping I don't crash.
I've been dating a girl for four months, as of today actually. I haven't written once since we started dating...funny coincidence, eh? So, her name's Victoria and I think I am pretty much in love with her, which is refreshing, because I didn't see it coming, and it feels a bit more honest than my last few encounters with women. She's a little young, which worries me slightly, and I get to be her first gay encounter, so I hope everything ends well with this one. I would really hate to lose her. I've even moved her in with me...god, I feel like a typical lesbian.
Other recent events include, well...a lot of bad shit happening. I got arrested, which was less than pleasant, and sat in county jail for eleven hours. Because of this, I have a shitload of fines to pay off, and I get to pay in taxes this year, which means my vacation to California gets postponed. The same thing happened last year, well, not for the same reason, but my vacation was moved several times. This slightly bothers me, simply because I'm getting homesick a bit these days. Victoria is eager to see the west coast, so I really want to get over there as soon as I can. I miss my friends, dammit.
Well, my computer crashed, but luckily we have two in the house, so maybe I'll start updating this thing again. Until I wander back on, I hope everybody is doing well, and I'll be reading over your shoulders again soon! | | comments: 4 I hope your dream's in me or You're only dreaming... |
| | Current Music: | OMD- "If You Leave" | | Security: | | | Subject: | Quick update | | Time: | 11:09 pm | | Current Mood: |  exhausted |
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| I'm heading in to week five of overtime. For the last month, I've been working six days a week and twelve hour days. I think I may go insane. On the bright side, I did get a promotion. Not too bad. This makes four in the year I've been with the company. Guess I could be doing worse.
My brother was working with me, but quit recently. I kind of view this as both good and bad. Good because he hated his job, bad because he left without much idea of what to do next. Eh, we all have to do what feels right, I suppose. Just wish he would have thought things out a bit more.
The little bastard screwed me for Halloween. He wanted to do a dress up thing for work, and talked me into doing Ashlee and Jessica Simspon. So, I went out, bought a wig and other stupid "girly" things, then he quit before Friday, the day we were going to dress up. So, after he had announced to everyone that we were doing this, they all expected me to continue with the plan, despite his absence. In the long run, this little butch went all girly and made an ass of myself at work. But, I got all the cool points in the world from my friends, just for wandering around work for twelve hours in, what I felt was "drag".
Got home this evening and found an envelope covered in Chococat from the San Rio store with my name on it. Nicole. I love her so much. She decided to write me on her little girl stationary and tell me that she misses me. It's funny how she's so serious and so adult, but then suddenly my overacheiving twenty-four year old friend sends me a letter on Hello Kitty stationary. Man did it make me miss her.
Spoke with Amber the other night. She seems to be doing okay. We talked for a good couple hours, and I'm glad to know she's no pissed at me. I was beginning to wonder for awhile what I had done. Turns out, she's been just as busy as I have.
Man what a long bloody month this has been. Friday will be here soon enough, which means Saturday will follow shortly after, and then Sunday I won't have to wake up at six a.m. It's really quite sad that this is all I have to look forward to in the days ahead. Ah well... | | comments: 3 I hope your dream's in me or You're only dreaming... |
| | Current Music: | K's Choice- "Tired" | | Security: | | | Subject: | Blurb of nonsense | | Time: | 11:04 pm | | Current Mood: |  morose |
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| So busy. Haven't been online. Haven't really gone out. Haven't done much of anything, really.
Antisocial. Not feeling up to interactions much these days. Or maybe I'm just avoiding anyone who really knows me. That's really the case these days. Finding myself in the company of those who'd rather talk than listen. It's just easier.
Work. Work and work and more work. Twelve hour days all next week. Changes to my department causing riffs between me and my coworkers. I had nothing to do with it, but it's directly my fault that changes have come about. Ugh.
Court on Wednesday. Apprehension running high. License is suspended, as I had found out when pulled over for a license plate light being burnt out. I think I'm done paying rent to Melissa. I'm over it, and I really don't want much to do with her these days. She's starting to realize it. I don't care much.
Amber seems miffed. She wasn't very responsive when we were last in contact. I must have done something to tick her off. Guess I'll figure it out, or just wait around to see what happens next. It bothers me, but I'm not sure why. Feelings of inadequacy running high these days, I guess.
Home sick. Always. I need Nicole. I don't do well without her these days, and we're both too busy to catch on the phone. But I'll keep trying.
Tired. So very tired. Work in eight hours. And it's only eleven o'clock. Damn this week better run by me like all of the good years in my life once did. Sleep. | | comments: I think I can hear you talk or You're only dreaming... |
| | Current Music: | "Evaporated" -Ben Folds Five | | Security: | | | Subject: | Meh | | Time: | 01:12 am | | Current Mood: |  numb |
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| I'm bored and trying to work myself into a tired lull. I really should be in bed, work tomorrow morning. Ugh Woke up way too late, and now I just can't seem to let the day fade. How horrible, no?
Weekend wasn't too bad. Spent time with friends I haven't made time for in awhile. It's always nice to be around people I have a bad tendancy to over look. It reminds me of how much I need variety in my life. It also reminds me that I've met some amaxing people in this forever foreign place.
Plenty of things going on in the days ahead. Plans for Tuesday and Wednesday, should be a relief to get out of the house and stop over thinking things. Me and my bad habits.
I've decided I'm completely over hurricanes. What a way to break in my year on the "east coast". I didn't realize where I had been living these last twelve months until the last few weeks. Constant state of panic all around, and I never know how to work myself into a frenzy. Granted my friends and neighbors round these parts surely do. I suppose I'm just not that excitable, and I'm beginning to pick up on it more and more these days. I guess one day I'll remain a bit too calm at an inopportune moment and fins myself in trouble. But, so far so good, so why stress over it?
Phone was out for a few days after the last storm hit. Pissed me off having no internet access on day one, but then I realized there isn't all too much I do online anyhow. Aside from livejournal [which I hardly update] and a barrage of webcomics, my e-life is just about as dull as my real one. Sucks to be me, eh?
In those odds times when the web wasn't available last week, I found myself spending my evenings sitting on my cell phone, talking to some of my friends back home. God, how I miss those people. I'll be heading back out in January, though, and I honestly wish I could go tomorrow instead. Ah well, I'm here for a reason I have yet to unearth, so I be better left to find out the hows and whys. Soon enough, I hope.
Talked to Nicole about flying her over in October. I think that would be great. We could do a lot of exploring around here. I miss her so much some days, and it almost drives me mad. I suppose I never realized how important she is to me and my life until this seperation. She'll always be the one person I just can't imagine living without. Well, aside from my mother. Anyhow, if I can get her over here, perhaps it will cure my homesickness for at least a few months before I head back over. I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever live in California again. But I know I can't do this forever, living here but dreaming about the would and could be's of a life I've long left but not forgotten.
I picked up a copy of "Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance" the other day, but have yet to fully dig my teeth into it. All of the descriptions I've found lead me to believe it's almost a more modern tale of the Steppenwolf. Perhaps it will give me a sense of direction, just as the novel of Hesse had once upon a time. Or maybe I'll just really want to go buy myself a Harley. Either way, is it really a bad outcome?
Okay, I'm still not tired, but ready to debate with sleep and let it seduce me. | | comments: 5 I hope your dream's in me or You're only dreaming... |
| | Current Music: | "Now is Mine" -K's Choice | | Security: | | | Subject: | Stir crazy!! | | Time: | 03:22 pm | | Current Mood: |  calm |
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| I hate when everything closes for bad weather. Not because I'm not "prepared" persay, but moreso because it gives me little excuse to leave the house. So here I sit, bored to tears without any hope of things letting up. News reports are advising that, if you absolutely have to be out, do it before 2pm. Well, I have to be out of this house, lest I go mad.
So, I decide to take a drive.
( Take a ride? ) | | comments: I think I can hear you talk or You're only dreaming... |
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